I often think that things will happen at the right time. I just have to be patient and keep going.
Today, I was taken over by my impulsivity and went a little bit “fuck it all”. I was in this mood since yesterday with all the “smiles make for better aging” attitude, to be certain.
I was so taken by how fast things evolved that I felt like today was just perfect.
J’AIME today, but I wish that this happened two weeks ago.
And then I panicked.
Tipical Gemini crap, no sweat. I’m over it. #friendsknow #mybestfriendknowsbest
The truth is that if this happened two weeks ago, I do not know what I would have done. The clarity that I am not going the right way didn’t exist two weeks ago. Furthermore, I had so much on my mind that I needed to have something certain even if when other things cleared, this something certain became a trap I can’t help but just walk into.
And today came the escape-ish… Because I would just be going into a different prison, but it would be different… J’AIME different.
I have decided already that fear or lack of money won’t stop me to do what I want. If I truly really want it, I will find a way.
And I decided today that I do not have to do it alone. What the…?! I’m not a martyr 🙄
The point is that there is no “right time”. To wait for one is to not get what you want.
Also, I do not have to decide anything today, except that I will just do all I can to achieve what I want and then adjust to how things go. I feel like I have to give up something to get something else and if that is the case, so be it, but that decision is for future me to take.
For now, just live. 🎉